I Don't Like Being Lied To.

I go to a Catholic School. I actually like my school a lot, strangely enough. But one thing that does annoy me is just how much pro-life propaganda there is. I mean, obviously, there is going to be some, but the extent they push it to annoys me.
I am Pro-Choice.
I hate abortion.
People think that if you are pro-choice, that makes you pro-abortion. I am not pro-abortion. I don't see how I could be. I hate abortion. I think it is one of the worst things a person can go through.
I could never go through with it myself, except in one scenario. I mean if the pregnancy was killing me. That would only be the right thing to do. Better have a potential life die then to have a potential life AND I both to die. Otherwise, I just could not do it. I couldn't. I don't want some doctor sticking their hand or God knows what in me and killing my baby. No. That is revolting to me. Terrible. And if I ever have a friend in a crisis pregnancy, I would say that I think that they should probably have the kid and put it up for adoption. But whatever choice they would make, I would support them. That's what friends are for.
However, I would say it once, and drop it. Leave it up to them. I would not hold it against them if they had it done. I would not show them pictures of dead babies, or scary videos or threaten them. I could never do that.
See, I can only make these sorts of decisions for myself. I won't make them for anyone else.
My uterus, my choice.
I don't want a Doctor with their hand in it. I DON'T WANT THE GOVERNMENT THERE EITHER!
That sort of decision is the worst a woman would ever have to make. No one wants to have an abortion. No one.
But the Government has no right to tell you what to do with it. Especially since the government is mostly comprised of men (though the actual Legislative Electorate is 52% female, the Executive and Judicial branches are in the majority male).
Yes, I believe abortion is icky. Childbirth can be too, but I would have someone to love so fiercely and completely that (while I don't have a kid, so I don't pretend to know first-hand, but this is what I believe from the accounts of those who do) it would be more than worth whatever pain I would or could ever go through. But I can't speak for every woman. I won't. I refuse. And for any person to try to make that decision for someone else is disgusting to me.
But, I stopped getting pissed whenever I saw all those stickers and shit in our school. They have a right to believe what they want. And it does not really affect me that much. With or without the stuff they throw at us, I would feel the same way. They are not telling us we are going to Hell if we have one. Overall, I think they go about it in a somewhat mature fashion. While they do go overboard sometimes, they do it with a little dignity. Their pro-life stuff mostly was just having a few post-abortive mothers come in and talk to us about their guilt.
I even got a kick out of my current morality teacher's attitude towards abortion. She had stickers on her wall that say things like: "IRRESPONSIBLE MEN LOVE ABORTION!!!" "ABORTION: A WORTHLESS MAN'S BEST FRIEND!" "REAL FEMINISTS DON'T RIDE ON THE BACKS OF DEAD BABIES!" "WOMEN DESERVE BETTER THAN ABORTION!"
Talk about the most castrating pro-life stuff ever.
And as she will tell you "I'M A FEMINIST FOR LIFE!"
Now, I do get annoyed when she calls pro-choice people "pro-death." That's annoying.
Or when I got that note in Spanish on the "Silence Against Abortion" day (someone noticed I was talking), it said "You kill babies and you're going to Hell!"
I responded by drawing a picture of a wire hanger and handing it to the person who gave me the note. Under it, it said, "I don't remember doing that, but I do remember my grandmother telling me about finding this sticking out of her friend in the forties because abortion was not legal. So instead of one 'life' gone, it was two lives."
Strange thing is, I don't remember killing any babies.
Anyways, this quarter in Morality, we have to do projects on abortion. Now, usually this is done in partners. When we were told this, I felt relieved. That meant I could do the research and not have to write or say a single thing. My partner could do that.
Except there was an odd number of students in my class. And guess who my teacher decided would work alone because they "were the only one in the class who can think for themselves"?
Moi.
Otherwise the class is like a philosophy class. And I'm the only one who actually can argue with my teacher and follow what she says.
But I digress.
So anyways, my topic was abortificacients like the pill. Fantastic.
So anyways, everyone was provided with links on my teacher's site to look up information. I look at these sites.
Then I Google the pro-life stuff. I am shocked at what turns up. I ask my teacher, she says it is real.
I get told by these sites that in every abortion, there is almost a full baby coming out, that it is dismembered and decapitated, its head crushed. I am told they use a vacuum and the woman is always hurt badly and that sometimes the babies survive and are thrown on the roof and eaten by birds.
Okay. I did not believe that fully. I mean sure, some things remotely like that might happen, but not in credible abortion clinics, and not with all abortions.
So I talk to my psychiatrist, Dr. B. Supershrink. Supershrink is a Catholic. Supershrink went to Georgetown Medical School (Jesuit-run). He said the priests were good, holy men who were easy-going. But they would not teach abortion, so there was some other hospital the students were sent to in order to learn to perform an abortion. Supershrink had actually performed them a very very long time ago. He told me about it a couple of weeks ago when we discussing women's rights. Supershrink also told me he used to "baptize" every baby that died just in case. He then went into psychiatrics and became Supershrink.
So with this in mind, I discuss all this with him. I figure when he performed abortions, they were even worse since it was back in the seventies.
He looks at me and says, "No! Not at all! Those pictures you saw are probably fake. An aborted fetus looks like a piece of skin about this big."
Supershrink proceeded to press the tip of his right forefinger to his right thumb to make a space about half the size of a walnut.
"Now partial-birth abortion? Yes, that is bad. Late term abortion? In some cases. But in regular abortions, not at all!"
This of course directly contradicts all the "accounts" from former abortion doctors on these sites.
I trust my experienced Supershrink over these websites.
And trust me; I don't believe everything psych people tell me. In fact, before Supershrink, I had been through five or six therapists/shrinks. I didn't want to go see him at first. In fact, the first time I spoke to him alone, the first words out of my mouth were, "I'm going to be perfectly honest with you, and I was not told I would be seeing you until earlier today. I've been through a million of people already. And I respect you enough to be perfectly honest. The truth is I have no interest in being here."
But I didn't know that he was Supershrink.
I invited him to read my blog last week.
So maybe he's reading this here. If so...
HI DOCTOR B!!!!!!!
He also got me an autographed Christina Ricci photo too. And we lent each other CDs. He gave me a Talking Heads record I did not have and Rumors by Fleetwood Mac. I got him into Muse and MCR.
But anyways, I don't like being lied to. People, whatever your stance is on abortion, good for you as long as you're not shooting people or blowing things up. Or forcing people to do stuff. Or LYING TO PEOPLE! But go march in whatever march you want. If we disagree, fine. You believe what you want. That's how Liberty works.
I don't want the Government sticking its hand in my uterus. The only people who should be in there are the people I decide to create when I am ready to have kids. That's it.
And I do not want to be lied to. I want to learn truth, or I learn nothing. I do not want to swim in ignorance; I want to use my brain well. I want to develop it. Lies stand in the way of that. I will not tolerate people standing in the way of my mental development. I am too young, I have to become smart now or I never will and I will not be deprived of any knowledge or intelligence that I am capable of obtaining.